Monday, July 13, 2015

Writing in Red













I know, I know, another poem. How could I?  I had a writing inspiration and a writing feast. I couldn't stop myself. It is amazing what a little peace and time away from chaos can do. Next week's post will be the end of the short story series (I promise!!! I have it almost complete and then need to edit it.) and then it is back to the book posts. I am almost done. Two more chapters to go. Don't distract me now. 


Writing in Red Lipstick
I came home that night
Walked up the stairs slowly
Never turning on the light
Enjoying the cloak of darkness
Fearing the glaring light of reality
I did not fear the dark
It was a blanket that covered up sins and scars
It was an impassable wall
Keeping at bay the wolf who now sleeps
Down the hall from me
I know the path by memory
The memories of destruction seldom easily fade


I entered my room
Slowly closed the door
Never making a sound
Never disturbing the night into waking
Never alerting the moon
To appear from behind that cloud
And I locked the door
Knowing its fallible defense won't protect me
Refusing even now to light my path
I tip toed and stumbled
Cursing under my breath
Soundless fury, quiet shock


I walked into the bathroom
Closed the door behind me
It whispered shut
And I held my breath
The sound of nothing felt loud, screaming
My held breath releases
Like a gale force wind
I crept like a ballerina
Gliding effortlessly on my toes
I grabbed a towel, rolling it into an impenetrable roll
I laid it by the crack in the door
No light gets out, no light gets in.


I turned on the light
And looked straight into the mirror
I tried to give a smile
But it didn't change my face
Dark circles
Tear stained eyes
Red nose
Disheveled hair
Sunken cheeks
And eyes whose depths of sadness
Seemed deeper than the ocean
I clench my fist


I dried the tears with the back of my hand
I squared my shoulders
Anger now pouring out of my eyes
I stood taller somehow

Resolution!
Awareness does not always come
Wrapped in a pretty bow
Often it cuts
Like a knife
Straight into the heart
Cutting through to the bone


I grabbed for the black tube
And gave a small, angry, defiant grin
I opened the tube slowly
Turned the knob at the base
And raised it up to the mirror
taking a deep breath
Should I really?
My head snaps back up
Did you stop to think
Before you hurt me
No!
And I write my message in red lipstick


THE END!


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